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OK, well…I am currently a 38 year old single mother who has the humiliating privilege to say that I have been married and divorced twice….and I’m not even 40 yet. At this point I think I’ll give up on romantic relationships….obviously I suck at them. I grew up in one of those “Cleaver” households. Mom and Dad have been married (to each other lol) for 39 years. I am the “goody two-shoes” of the family…or so everybody seems to think. Apparently, I’m a really good liar…If only they knew… However, the reason they all think that is because I cannot stand to disappoint anyone (in other words…I am practically paralyzed with guilt anytime I think they might find out I’m not who they think I am), so I hide the real me behind the “public” me. Like I said…I have issues…Anyway, I’m hoping to grow a bit and figure out where I went wrong….how did I end up where I am today?…why am I so scared of being myself?…and perhaps most importantly…WHO THE HECK AM I??? I had a therapist once (after my 1st divorce) tell me I had a chameleon personality…in other words, I was such a non-person, that I “became” like those around me. I thought she was nuts at the time…that was 15 years ago…I wish I had listened to her, it would have saved me a lot of tears.
kathleen said
Hi there… I am flattered you are following my posts… we seem to have similar conflicts going on after our divorce. It’s crazy. There is a happily ever after… patience it the key. I look forward to learning more about you and sharing our experiences. Life is certainly not what I thought it would be… but, it could be worse.
off to read more on your blog… no wonder I don’t get much done in life… oh well… kids are sleeping, it’s summer… it’s all good!!!
cjrambling said
I’ve decided life in general is crazy, therefore I should fit right in to the looney bin
Good to “meet” you too!!
Barb said
I saw a comment of yours on Kat Wilder’s blog about “someone needs to start a friendship network site.” Actually, there is one, and I’ve made numerous friends from it. Check out http://www.meetin.org. Hopefully, there’s a site near where you live.
Good Luck!
cjrambling said
Hey Barb,
Thanks for the info. It looked interesting, unfortunately, the two closest groups (3 & 4 hours away respectively) both appear to be defunct now. I’ll keep an eye on things and see if there’s any activity.
Thanks again,
CJ
BONNIE said
WOW! You and I sound sooo similar. I haven’t been divorced but I’m in a terrible relationship and hope to be divorced soon. You really opened my eyes when you said “I had a therapist once (after my 1st divorce) tell me I had a chameleon personality…in other words, I was such a non-person, that I “became” like those around me. I thought she was nuts at the time…that was 15 years ago…I wish I had listened to her, it would have saved me a lot of tears.” Wow, I’m that person too!